Doggie outside my window

Pregnancy hormones..they're a killer. I find myself crying my eyes out over things that may have just made me slightly upset. For over a week I have been fighting these feeling over a silly little dog. My neighbor lets his dog run free, and he came to my house. At the time, I didn't know he was owned by anyone, I thought he was a stray. Being my animal loving self I played with him and let my dog play with him. Last Saturday I got a knock on my door from an old man who lives a few houses over and said that it was his dog. He told me he was trying to keep it from coming over here and wanted ME to 'give him a good switching' when he comes over. There's no way I'm going to do that! I don't beat my own dog, let alone someone else's dog. I took the hint though, and I have not given the dog anymore attention. The problem is, he won't leave! He follows me every where I go, tries to run after my car when I leave, and cries outside of my window looking at me. I can't take much more! It's breaking my heart. Today it's pouring in the rain and he's soaked to the bone and wants inside. I don't want to go against this guys wishes, but if he wants his dog he needs to keep him indoors or make a fenced in lot for him. I'm not sure, but isn't there a law against letting your dog run free?

I'm just very frustrated with this man. He doesn't seem to care for his dog in any way except giving him food. A dog needs more than that, he needs to be played with, given some attention, and this dog especially, needs to be groomed. I wish I could have this dog, but I can't. I wish I had the guts to go up to this mans house and offer to pay him for the dog. I can't see how he would really care, seeing how the dog is never even at his house. But, it's not my call. I guess I'll just sit here and look out my window wishing I could play with him.

Relief!

Today I had my monthly checkup for the pregnancy. I'm pleased to report Jacob is doing just fine. They were asking me the routine questions, and when they asked me how I felt, I told them fine except for the pinched nerve. The doctor asked if I had ever seen a chiropractor, and I said no. She asked if I wanted a referral, and I said sure, I would try just about anything to make this pain go away.

Well, I went to the chiropractor and was nervous...just thinking about my bones being moved in my spine was a little scary. I was sitting in the waiting room all by myself, and couldn't help but over hear two patients that were ahead of me being treated. I heard grunts and "oohs" and "ahhs" and "right there, right there!" I was like oh my gosh..they sound..orgasmic. Hearing that almost made my anxiety go away. lol

Finally, it was my turn. I went in and told him my aches and pains, and mentioned that I have had minor back pain since childhood and was told by a doctor in my teens that I had scoliosis. That doctor NEVER told me to get treated. The chiropractor said if I hadn't came in within a few years, that I would have been too late to treat it. I was shocked! I didn't know it could be treated, and I certainly didn't know there was a time frame. So, after I deliver I can be treated for my scoliosis. As for the the pinched nerve I originally went there for, he made me lie on my side and he did the realignment. I heard so many pops, but it didn't hurt. I didn't make the noises the patients ahead of me had made. lol I'm happy to say that my pain has eased up a lot, but not completely gone. He said as much. He told me that he can ease my pain and make it a lot more bearable. I think I will just have to wait until my pregnancy is over to have it go away completely.

Next month, on May 17th, I will be able to do a 4D ultrasound. I am SO excited for that. I have seen my sister-in-laws video and David's cousin's video of their 4D's and it is so amazing. It's like you are looking at the baby. They set it to music and film the parents at the very beginning, the whole presentation looks great. I will have David and my parents there to watch. I really want my mom to be there because she's not been able to be there for any of my other ultrasounds, and the 17th is also her birthday. I thought it would be special for her to see her first grandchild in 4D on her birthday. :)

Baby Dreams and Worries

Dreams, they are always a source of fascination to me, mainly because almost every night I can remember them in such detail. Last night, I had a dream that needs no interpretation, it's pretty much self explanatory. For some reason, Jacob had been born early, but yet was still healthy. I was like oh my gosh, I have nothing ready! I noticed he needed a fresh diaper, so I tried to find the changing table..it hadn't been put together yet, so I got David to start putting it together. Since there was no table I went to change him on the bed, of course I got the poo on our sheets and on his clothes. I searched for baby wipes to clean him up..nothing! Why don't I have wipes?! I tried to find clean clothes for him, we had none. I was about to scream! The only good part of this dream was that he was healthy, and I had become comfortable handling him. One of my anxieties is getting use to positioning him because I 'think' he's so fragile. lol I know better, but it's still a small fear of mine.

Obviously this dream is my fear of having nothing ready by the time Jacob gets here. His room is still a 'junk' room. There's no crib, dresser, changing table or decorations that have been purchased. We will hopefully have the furniture bought within the next month and have decorations and clothes from the baby shower. If I don't get everything we need we will still have a month and a half to get it after the shower. Why am I freaking out over it? Well, if you talk to anyone that knows me, they will tell you it's impossible for me to NOT freak out.

Another worry, that is actually legit, is that I found out that I have Group B Strep infection. I am currently on antibiotics and will need antibiotics by IV during labor to keep Jacob from getting it. My doctor doesn't seem that worried about it, so that makes me feel a bit better. I, of course, think of worst case scenarios, what if I go into premature labor and the baby doesn't get the antibiotics in time? I'm so scared that I could lose him, or he becomes handicapped in some way. I ask that everyone keep us in your prayers.

Ouch!

I just got back from my doctor's appointment because my hips and inner thighs have been hurting. I was told I have a pinched nerve, and boy does it hurt. The explanation I got was that as the baby gets bigger and pushes on me, my vertebrae in my back move, and that can sometimes caused a pinched nerve. I seem to have gotten 'lucky' and had it happen to me. My body can get use to it and my pain could go away, but I could also keep it until delivery. I hope it gets better, otherwise I have 4 more months of this. I guess I am paying for the wonderful first trimester I had. I felt so good then when most women feel their worst. Oh well, it's all worth it. :)

My Easter weekend was great. On Saturday I went to a church cookout and watched all the children hunt eggs. I got to meet my 2nd cousin, who is almost 2 years old. He is what I hope my baby boy will look like. He has such pretty brown curly hair. Unfortunately David didn't get to go with me, he stayed home to work on our house. But on Sunday we went to church with my parents, and on the way we had a flat tire. Luckily we got it changed and was only 15 minutes late. Church was also late to start, so it turned out fine. We also went to his parents house and watched his family hunt Easter eggs. I didn't get to see David's little niece because her mom still hasn't had her baby yet, and needed to stay near the hospital. But I saw cute pictures of her on facebook of her hunting eggs in the yard with her grandparents.

Update

It's been quite a while since I've posted. Nothing has really happend worthy of reporting. And that can be a good thing, it means things are going very smooth. :)

I've reached 20 weeks pregnant, and I'm starting to feel like I have a drum inside of me. I keep having that feeling of being beat on, and little Jacob is my drummer boy. lol I had the anatomy scan done at 18 weeks, and he was given a clean bill of health. Thank God! That's when I got to find out the gender of our baby. I didn't really need much help figuring it out once it came upon the screen. lol I felt like screaming, "I can see his wee weee!!" But yeah, that would've been inappropriate at the time. :D

Church has been going well, I really like where we started going. It also gives me a chance to see my sister-in-law. She is going to have her little baby at ANY time. She went in a couple weeks ago to stop her labor, but now it's safe for her to have the baby. She's gone back 2 times this week because of contractions, but it just never seems to happen. We saw her yesterday evening and she was once again having contractions and having back pain. We're all hoping it will happen soon, especially her because she's in so much discomfort.

Yesterday was great, we all got together at her house and had a birthday party for David's mom and brother. I had the most fun watching David play with his 2 year old niece Isabella. First time I've ever seen him play with baby dolls. lol The best part is when Isabella, her doll, and David all had plastic bowls on their heads for hats. Wish we had a picture of that, it was so cute. He said he couldn't wait until he could play with Jacob. :) We will have our time, just have to wait.

We are now in the market for a new mattress. I wonder how many pregnant women shop for new mattresses?? lol My back has been killing me! I have this horrible dread when it's time for bed. I know I'm going to lay on that lumpy mattress with no room. We have a very old full size bed, it was my mattress before we got married. I got the mattress from my grandmother who had it in storage for I don't know how many years. I bet it's older than me! David gave in yesterday and we are going to try and buy a queen tempurpedic mattress. I am so looking forward to that! A full size is just too small for a girls growing belly, a man, and a dog to all try to sleep on.

I haven't played World of Warcraft for a while now. I played for a little while on my warlock, and it was fun. I got her to lvl 80 and got some nice epics. But they just weren't nice enough to take on the big raids. I guess if I had stuck with it long enough I could have gotten her there, but just sitting around waiting in que for a dungeon wasn't very fun. I got to the point where I only really needed gear from the new Ice Crown dungeons, but I almost always got a group that wouldn't finish it. Either the healer or the tank got mad at someone and left, which made us have to wait forever to find a replacement. The best runs I had was when I got my husband to fill one of those roles. He doesn't play anymore either. He is basically in the same rut I am. He started to play Aion again, but I doubt that will last long. It just something to do because we are so bored in the evenings. I don't know what to do with my time now that I don't raid!! I miss WoW, but I can't find anything to hold me there. There seems to be set raid groups, and I don't want to disrupt that by raiding a while and then quitting, it's not fair to those who are dedicated.

Church

Recently going to church has been on my mind a lot. I have been a believer since I was a small child because my parents took me to church and explained it to me. Now that I have a child on the way I feel that I should do better and raise it in church like my parents did me. I also have been having these feeling before I got pregnant, it's just now they are stronger. I guess you could say I have been 'lukewarm' for a while, and I know that is not good.

I chose a church that my brother-in-law and his wife go to. I've visited there a couple of times and really enjoyed it. I like the way the pastor presents his message and I enjoy hearing them sing. They don't sing what most churches around here sing, which is the older gospel music. Not that there's anything wrong with it, it's just not for me. I can't say that I've ever liked it. My mom and dad love it and I remember as a child closing my door and turning up my t.v. to block it out. It sounds so 'twangy', like bad country music.

This church also seems to be active, and has a lot of activities if you choose to take part in them. Once I have my child I would like to join MOPS (Mothers of preschoolers). My sister-in-law goes and enjoys it, so I think I would give it a try.

I'd like to buy a new Bible, one that doesn't have all the thee's and thou's in it. I guess I will have to go to a Bible Bookstore and ask someone who works there to help me. It would be no use asking my parents, if it's not the New King James Version you are just wasting your time. lol

Well, keep me in your prayers that I keep this up. I really want to do better. :)

WoW Complaints

I have recently taken a leave of absence from World of Warcraft. Why? I was bored of doing the same things over and over, and being almost rock bottom dps. Granted, I never researched my class further than what type of gear I needed and the stats I required. I just recently read Daughter of Ravenholdt Manor, and saw her graph of the diffrent classes dps. Guess what, balance druids were on the bottom! AHHH! What am I good for? I can't think of much. I have a buff and a battle rez, and if you're a leather worker you can do the buff without a druid being present. If I went feral dps I could do better if I had the gear, but I don't WANT to be feral. The rotations are a pain to keep up with, in my opinon, and it means I have to be melee. I enjoy being in the background throwing my spells at the boss. Plus, fuzzy boomkins are just cute. :) Is that any reason to play a balance druid, not really, but it doesn't hurt.

Other things that took me from WoW was the raiding situation. I didn't really enjoy 25 mans. Sure, you got much better gear, but you had to pay for it with constant head banging. I'm not a hardcore raider. I don't like trying a boss more than 3-5 times. After that I start to scream at the computer screen and make not so nice remarks to myself about whats going on. I also had little patience with those who don't know what to do in the raid after they had done it before, many times, or asked repeatedly what to do with loot when the raid leaders have instructed us before the raid.

My prefered raiding situation is a 10 man with the same people, or at least mostly the same. Now that there have been a lot of people quitting WoW, the guild has been forced to do 10 mans and only do a 25 man once a week. I REALLY wish that was the way it was when I was playing. To be honest, I liked the guild when it was small. It's so large now, and they have to try and please the majority. I understand that, but it's just not the way I liked it. Maybe I just don't like change, that is probablly the biggest part of it. The raids when we were doing kara, that was the best times for me. It was a small group of close knit people having fun.

Oh well, I guess I should stop complaining. Things change, and if you don't change with them you get left behind. At least I have good memories. I won't be gone from WoW forever, I may even be back within a month of so if I see the guild is still doing 10 mans more than 25. But I will certainly be back for cataclysm. I've got to make a worgen druid. :)