Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Drama, in Game and Out

Eternity Matters seems to be going through drama again. I won't go into detail about that because you can see it on the forums if you really wanted. But I guess I read the blog from a previous member that got me down that was directed at the drama. I helped with the new website slogan, and she pretty much bashed it. I had no intention of 'misusing scripture'. I guess I am a very sensitive person and it hurt me. She then went on to say that God doesn't care that we play WoW. Maybe not in a literal sense, but he cares about me and I know he cares about what I do. So if I find friends and can hear the Word in WoW, then I'm sure He cares a lot. I don't understand why anyone wants to stir things up, I suppose they feel a certain conviction in what they are saying. I know when I feel something deeply and no one listens I get frustrated. This doesn't mean I agree with them, I just think I can kind of understand why they do it. On the other hand, it makes me wonder if they enjoy doing these things. It seems to me that sometimes they do, but I am on the outside looking in.

In real life news, I am going to the doctor again tomorrow. This will be my first time driving there on my own, and I'm nervous. I confess, I HATE to drive long distances, it makes me very nervous. But this is very important to me, so I can't wait for someone to do it for me. It is less than two weeks now that I will do the actual IVF. I'm nervous to whether it will work or not this time. It worked last time, so I am praying that it will again. Just this time, I hope I have a happier ending.

This past week I was put on some anxiety meds, that alone makes me feel like a failure. That seems like a strange thing to say doesn't it? It just bothers me that I don't seem to be the master of my emotions that I'd like to be. I am just not dealing with the stress well, and I guess it was time to get some help. It's also not like I'm the only one in my family to be this way, my father, grandfather and other great uncles and aunts are like me. We have a very nervous nature. If only I could be like my husband, who is as easy going as possible. If we do have children, I want them to be like him.


Shikyrie said...

good luck this time around with the IVF, I sincerely hope that it works out for you guys this time around. As far as being a failure goes, you're not. you're human, and as long as you remember that, you should be fine. Be well, LaRhonda, and take care of yourself.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there we will be prayin' and dont let the actions of a few spoil it for ya. :)

Daraia said...

Hey LaRhonda, it is that Sensitive heart and spirit that touches so many, don't worry others who miss inturept motives based on limited information and their own biasis.

You have a safe drive and a successful visit with the Doctor.

Jordan said...

No one is a master of their emotions. Everyone has at least one subject that can make them nervous beyond all belief, don't consider yourself weak just because you are going through this sensitive time for you.

I really hope it works for you this time.

Anonymous said...

I wanted to share this public apology I posted on my blog to you so you could have it on your blog. IT's hard to word things just the right way at times so you deserve this apology:

Lunas, I personally owe you an apology for wording things very badly when speaking of the new catch phrase "Raiding for the Glory of God". I did not mean to hurt your feelings and I am very sorry that I did so. I wrote about the slogan only because it demonstrated the change of focus away from ministry and towards game play even though they had been (at least until very recently) denying it any time I mentioned it. I'll be the first to admit that I don't always word things perfectly. While I still hold to the idea that "raiding" doesn't glorify God one way or the other, I certainly didn't intend to imply that you meant ill by it. Yes, I remember you with a smile and fondness. I hope all is well with you and I hope you can forgive my lack of finesse and for hurting your feelings. Much love, Rachel M.